everyone in my family hates me now.
im serious.

i want to just kill myself already.
it will prolly make everyone so much happier.

its times like this i feel like cutting my wrist again. but its so dammit childish.
i need to smoke.
i wonder whats the feeling of jumping down. as we were saying the other day.... all the different methods to kill ourselves.

ive always thought this family is much better off without me.